I'm updating my xanga after 2 months, because feeling kinda moody lately.  First off, my stocks aren't doing that well, but then I can take solice in the fact that almost the entire US and Canada is joining me in losing money.  Wish I was in HK, I would be making so much money in that stock market.  Since my savings are not growing, I'm getting more and more worried about my future.  What if I don't have enough money for my return back to HK? What if I can't find a good job as soon as I get back?  Why are all the good job offers given to me when I'm not yet ready to go back?

Getting so stressed lately, and nothing to do but sit at home and think about it to myself.  Its been so long since I held tiger in my arms and honestly it is making me more and more depressed.  Lately, all I feel like doing is sleep, go work and eat.  I don't feel like going out at all, no point, without tiger there, nothing seems fun.  I don't think u understand or know how important you really are to me and that I really want you beside me forever.  I hope u start to understand how I feel and that you will be back in toronto soon. 16 days seems so short but also so long.  I don't want you to worry, so please have fun while ur still in hk.  I know u will be back soon and then I can cook for you and have lots of happy times together again.  I love you tiger, please do not change.

I haven't update my xanga in a long time almost a year, but I am breaking my silence for you!!... I would appreciate it if DDF and GF and others who read my xanga not put a comment on this entry. 

To my Dearest Tiger Lo Gon (aka dai dai lup), 

I really really love, I want you to know that I have not done anything bad to you or will do anything bad to you in the future.  I really want us to be together forever, and I do not want anyone else but you.  I do not want to make you cry even though u want a release.  I just want you to smile and laugh for the rest of your life with me.  I know you are stressed and have a lot of challenges, but that is life and we all have to just work harder to make the bad things go away.  You are still young, and u will find ur direction soon enough.  Just try your best and put more effort into you final year of school.  I don't care if u can't take care of urself for now, that is what I am here for.  My life's job is to take care of my tiger and you are not a liability but something that I cherish and want to support.  I love you with all my heart and I will not leave you for anything.  Monkey will (but lei but hei) Tiger.  Sweet, Sour, Bitter, and Spicy, I am willing to go through all these things with you.  Please use me to support you when ur down, because if i'm down, I know u will support me.  I love you and I hope this will make u feel better.  I know there isn't much I can do, but all i want to do is love you.  Tiger, one life, one love.

Monkey (aka chiu dai lup)

Yesterday I finally moved out of my crap place in hamilton.  It was so tiring and yet it was such a large step.  For the past 6 years I have lived in that apartment with my two roommates.  We shared so many memories and so much laughter and it was really hard to let them go.  I know that life moves on, but now that the 3 of us have moved on, will we ever see each other or will slowly drift apart?  It really is sad, we helped each other get through the tough times at school, shared a lot of late night craziness and strong memories.  I guess it is now time to write a new chapter in my life.  I have DDF and expecially my darling to help me create new memories.  Most importantly I have "Lee Kam Ming" (I know ur going to kill me...lol....) to be with me and help journey through life.  I really hope that you will not doubt me or the things that I do.  I know it is hard to move on from the past but we all must, because life only goes forward and never backwards.  I work for my future and so should you.  Career is important and with a good career, we can built a bright future.

That advice goes to all of DDF and GF.....work towards your goals, so that you will have a happy future.  The bumps in the road to our desitination just helps us grow.  Without suffering there is no happiness, without pain there cannot be joy.  I have confidence that no matter what troubles we are dealt, we can all be successful and make our dreams come true.

.............and if we fail, we can all just hug each other and cry....or laugh at jur's thinning hair hahahahaha......

Well I haven't updated for like almost two months so I thought I would take the time and do a little update.  Well nothing special in my life, the new job at Manulife is going alright but is a little boring right now, since I haven't really started taking care of my business cases yet.  REally want to get my job future going full steam, so I am taking some courses at work so that I can get promotion soon and also in september till november i'm planning to get all my licence designations such as CFA, CSC and NASD.  So much work to do and still have to save money to go back to hk.  Planning and hoping to go back in october but right now still not 100% cause need place to live when I'm there and also I need money to make sure that I have enough to spend while i'm there.  Cause there is no point in me going back if I can't buy lots of stuff hahaha.....anyways, nothing special right now happening, just working, sleeping and eating.....just hope someone will take care of me if I get sick la, cause i would take care of him....lol......

Seems like every year we have to wait till fall before DDF is together spending time and having fun.  Two bad Ian and Joe are in hk....we all miss u lots ga....toe dai jur, make sure u don't become to "1" I cannot get used to it ga!! what will happen next? Will u finally grow hair? hahaha.....I think its just that there are too many "0" jai's in asia that is why you can turn to one....you know how if an island is full of women then they might become lesbians...well since asia has so many "0"'s they must think that you can be a "1", but they are so wrong, u will turn back normal soon ga la....hahahaha

Hope the rest of the summer goes by quickly la....

I know this will give most of DDF a headache, but I suddenly feel like practicing my French:

Cette entrée sera en français. Il n'y a aucune raison pour laquelle elle est en français. Hier était un jour très dur. Mon tigre a été intoxiqué et a commencé à pleurer. J'étais si triste. Je vous promets, je ne vous blesserai encore jamais. Vous serez toujours mon "lo gon". Au cours des cinq mois derniers j'ai vu quel type de personne vous êtes. Je sais que vous m'aimerez pour toujours et ne me blesserez jamais. J'ai une confiance que nous volonté durons pendant un temps très long. J'espère que vous comprendrez ma situation précédente. C'était un rapport très long et il était très difficile que je le finisse. Cependant, je sais qu'il doit être fait et je prendrai soin de lui. Soyez avec moi pour toujours. Je suis si désolé pour tout. Je t'aime tigre.